How often must I remain here? I must have died unexpectedly, and my wandering spirit, aura thick with malevolence and anguish, refuses to acknowledge my own death. Indeed, I have become a ghost, cursed to haunt diners, coffeeshops, bars and beaches, pen brandished and book unsheathed. I've grown so distant from others that Im more statue than Man, yet where this separation once stung painfully, it now soothes reassuringly. Lumped in with a generation of "men" with testosterone levels lower than a woman's would be 30 years ago, and forced to make due with "women" that proudly proclaim themselves sluts and will actually attempt to fistfight men if they are ignored and eschewed, as they should be, my sentiment is clear. I want no part of this generation. It's filthy and degraded.
You could say I'm living a daydream right now, a fantasy granted the breath of life by divine providence. How many shifts at work have I frittered away contemplating the perf…
I never imagined that I'd be writing this here in Hawaii of all places. I was the kid who wasted his potential, the wunderkind that sullied his genius through the pursuit of prestige and neglect, the prodigy that nearly failed out of high school pitifully. Now, a little over 3 weeks from my 26th birthday, Ive stepped back to reflect, as anyone of above average meaning and consciousness is apt to do. At 17, I would fantasize about traveling the country playing cards, busking, guitar firmly in hand, and writing, producing a sustainable living with my words. Less than a decade later, Ive made $1000 in less than a week off of an investment of $100 in the poker rooms of San Diego, had my poetry published in a variety of online magazines, and have recorded music with independent artists in 3 different states. Ive traveled the world and been inducted into the famed Order of Magellan. In short, Ive done everything my detractors deemed outside of my reach. If this seems self-aggrandizing, …
Unlike a growing contingent of “athletes” obsessed with
efficiency at the expense of results and productivity, I love to train. In
fact, I fucking LIVE to train. The understated ease yet enjoyable difficulty
and toil that comes with increasing your work capacity, refining a previously intimidating
technique, perfecting the firing of your neuromuscular proficiencies, and
simply pumping your limbs full of blood until they are close to bursting all
amalgamate to form a potent cocktail that will forever remain unmatched and
unsurpassed by any narcotic or liquor. In my opinion, it even beats the height
of orgasm at times. Arnold said it first, so by default it can’t be wrong.
The King has spoken.
It is both the bane and the blessing of every bodybuilder’s
existence. It can leave you unfathomably sore and crippled with DOMS after the
ecstasy of the experience has subsided, yet, in the moment, you can feel as if
you have the body…