Justin Razor and the World

This corpse is bloated/ Ive known the growth that/ Ive taken on is more than Id hoped when/ Id left home, forlorn and torn with/ My heart in too many places/ Erase this/ Past and restore my home when/ I returned alive/ Just to find/ The past had died/ And Id/ Be scorned and so pissed/ A decision born in moments/ When I could barely form the focus/ To make a decision/ I dismissed it/ Her love was eaten in a swarm of locusts/ I swore Id hold it/ My heart before the war had froze it/ Ive poured this old shit/ Out of my soul/ Back in control/ But soulless/ And now Im so pissed/ My love Ive thrown it/ Out but closure/ Wont come cause this blowing/ Wind breeze/ Skinning me/ Literally/ Leers at me/ Fucker you chose this/ Im like a sophist/ Nothing exists but me so I know that/ If I keep moving/ And see the sewing/ Of something new then I can own it/ A drifting freak/ Listlessly/ Trying to fill the void you had to dig in me/ Despicably/ Youre ripping t...

I tried to recapture/ What we were after/ I was seething mad cause/ I was bleeding faster/ While she was a cheating bastard/ Believed Id have her/ Back if Id changed my ways/ I displayed the great/ Things Id done but we still remained the same/ No state to blame/ It took 3 in total/ Illinois, Florida, then Virginia seized the throat of/ Our love and squeezed it closed for/ The last time, then released it choking/ Deceased and broken/ I thought that Id need that moment/ To breathe ambrosia/ So I could get even a degree of closure/ But this scene is over/ Yet you remain, an echo/ I bet those/ Emotions wont disappear, Im not forgetful/ Could I forgive those/ Indiscretions/ And bet that/ I could take bandages, and rip those/ Off/ Not double crossed/ Stumbling, lost/ From the get go/ I dont trip though/ Because your jagged edges/ Have stabbed remembrance/ Right down its breast and/ Slammed my penance/ Down in a random semblance/ Dismantled treasures/ Are...

What I would give. To spend an afternoon with you at the bookstore. Lazily languishing languidly, exploring new worlds with the birth of each fresh page. Iced tea melting, leaving rings of melted water. An echo of what once was. Id give all that Ive created since. To regress back to 14, innocent and scared, your beauty my eternal, vigilant light. My fingers clutching a book powerfully, its spine caressing my thigh. As I excitedly ruffle its contents, absorbing the words. I find my voice whilst basking in your love. Rain drops attack the stained glass window hurriedly. Producing the same sound as nimble fingers tapping the skin of a bongo drum. "Here, darling", you sing angelic, as the conforting warmth of hot chocolate heats my ruddy cheeks. My stack of books fills my peripherals, but I can still make out your smile. Im overseas, at the bookstore. A world away from the world I love, my fingers gripping yours tightly. Because Im still that child. He's ju...

Larceny/ Well pardon me/ For startling/ Your tarnished dreams/ A part of me/ Is obnoxiously/ Drawing these/ Idiots towards me/ For performing/ Ungarnished deeds/ Because this is my poetry/ It noticed me/ Flowing free/ A slowly freezed/ Unloved and broken thing/ Woe is me/ Because Ive choked my screams/ For too long/ Now theyve moved on/ To my exposed instincts/ To become exploding me/ Groping meek/ Trying to find sanctuary/ You claim to scare me/ But Im safe and bearing/ Now ill will towards your faithless envy/ Days are bending/ Your will while Im chained and desperate/ Stay and set this/ Painful memory/ Up so I can reclaim my destiny/ A devastating reverie/ Has shaken me/ Im faithfully/ Making these/ Hateful demons/ Breathe in/ Heathen/ Air and stay away from me/ Maybe we/ Can stay and be/ Crazily/ Cradling/ Out native bleak/ Futures hastily/ Dont make me blink/ These tears from my eyes/ To summarize/ Im done with lies/ Trust in light/...

If Im alone/ On my own/ I might know/ The reason so try some/ Tight growth/ To remind me/ Why these/ People try me/ Because I might be/ Reminding/ Them of their trifling/ Desires see/ I can be/ Everything you could never be/ Incredibly/ Betting these/ Enemies/ Are still testing me/ Treading these/ Streets carefully/ Unbearably/ Tearing these/ Paritys/ For the sake of clarity/ The air in me/ Is an error see/ Arrogantly/ Pairing me/ With rarer things/ Like love lost/ Some bossed/ These things out of me but I crushed all/ Opposition/ Stopped to listen/ And jumped off/ Of the bridge I burned/ When will these bitches learn/ To sit and churn/ Over choices that split and burn/ Its painful/ Im not able/ To drop names cause/ Ive got change to/ Embrace/ And this place/ Is just great/ For my distaste/ You ingrate/ Just wait/

Im finding myself/ Im indecisive as hell/ But I might just need help/ Reached higher on shelves/ Out of my reach and now Im trying to fail/ Because Im biting at welts/ Left behind by the belt/ Perspiring well/ Into the day because of the unrivaled hand I was dealt/ Im fighting with veils/ That wont be lifted/ Expose your innards/ And Ill show you prison/ I know youll listen/ If I choke on lyrics/ That hold you with them/ Through the darkness of your encroaching visions/ Disrobe your wishlist/ And Ill know you simply/ Because youre innocent/ When were intimate/ So will you just/ Emote and kiss me/ Well elope and with these/ Ill phone my mysteries/ And we'll be thrown through this deep/ Ocean/ Growing/ Through a soulless morning/ Bold and yearning/ While my cold hearts turning/ It takes its toll this burning/ As life unfolds our journey/ Take my hand/ We'll reclaim our chance/ At breaking bands/ That enslave and brand/ All that you change and ...

Her hair was long and silken/ She talked and instant-/ Ly I stopped to listen/ She said your walk is missing/ Something its got to have with it/ She said drop the bitch that/ Youre carrying on top of mixin/ Emotions/ Throw them/ Away and dont remove your frosted vision/ You could have a girl like me if youd just let go/ Of that upset ho/ I bet those/ Twinges of love you still feel/ Arent real/ Outside of your deaf zone/ Shes got you depressed so/ Move on and accept bro/ That she was faking/ I know your heart is breaking/ But dont text those/ Love poems/ You know that/ She doesnt deserve the best of/ You, and with that she stood up/ And I put up/ My anguish/ And embraced this/ Beauty, I should of/ Let the past go and not cripple me/ Simply/ Let life be life and all its mystery/ Im picturing/ What I could be, if I would no longer pitifully/ Sit on these/ Urges/ But murder/ My aversion to the fear in me/ Ripping these/ Limitations out and clearing th...