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Lost Love

I tried to recapture/
What we were after/
I was seething mad cause/
I was bleeding faster/
While she was a cheating bastard/
Believed Id have her/
Back if Id changed my ways/
I displayed the great/
Things Id done but we still remained the same/
No state to blame/
It took 3 in total/
Illinois, Florida, then Virginia seized the throat of/
Our love and squeezed it closed for/
The last time, then released it choking/
Deceased and broken/
I thought that Id need that moment/
To breathe ambrosia/
So I could get even a degree of closure/
But this scene is over/
Yet you remain, an echo/
I bet those/
Emotions wont disappear, Im not forgetful/
Could I forgive those/
Indiscretions/
And bet that/
I could take bandages, and rip those/
Off/
Not double crossed/
Stumbling, lost/
From the get go/
I dont trip though/
Because your jagged edges/
Have stabbed remembrance/
Right down its breast and/
Slammed my penance/
Down in a random semblance/
Dismantled treasures/
Are all Im dashed and left with/
Have to guess at/
What could of been/
I stood and left/
Cause it never was/
Severed some/
Remaining heart strings/
So startling/
That Id dismembered trust/
Cause you ensnared our/
Love and strangled it/
Deranged and shit/
But Im through playing bitch/
Your smile is dead to me/
Dreadfully/
Killing me mentally/
My energy/
Will no longer be wasted/
My heart remains in/
Exile and the dragon you were chasing's/
Replaced it/

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I cant sleep/
Because these damn bleat-/
Ing fat sheep/
Harass me/
With thoughts of home everlasting/
They ask me/
If I'm doubting/
Whether I'll be happi-/
Er back there or out be-/
Ing the bad dream/
I've been to half the peop-/
Le I've known, just last week/
I slapped, beat/
Down three/
Annoying ass teens/
For laughing/
As I watched a movie slammed, beat/
After a savage week/
At work, I found these/
Hands swing-/
Ing grabbing/
Necks to gash and ring/
While attacking/
Panicking/
I stand, shriek/
And pass weak/
Guards, they cant catch me/
Tragedy/
Befalls actually/
Facts and brief/
Glass meet-/
Ings with a pastor week-/
Ly leaves me/
Seeking/
A deity/
To help free me/
But they keep me/
In this cage weeping/
Scheming/
To beat these/
Screws/
Loose/
Unleashing/
Rage when they leash me/
Up like a dog, deep things/
Run through my head underneath these/
Veins running varicose/
My demons seem/
To always be very close/
Air and smoke/
Are an errant joke/
The mirror p…

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Hero






Temper raging/
Death grip taking/
The blood from my empty face and/
I'm arrested, angry/
Because the best, my daydream/
Is gone, my blessing's taken/
Because of my distressing flagrant/
Disregard/
For these talks/
Weve been in lately/
I mentioned, maybe/
We could stay abreast of changes/
In our moods, but kleptomani-/
A comes and steals the sentries saving/
Us from flexing, blazing/
When under duress or breaking/
I guess I'm wavering/
Under pressure, fading/
I press my shaking/
Fists to the lever waiting/
For me to pull it/
But Im sure it's/
A choice I shouldnt/
Be upset at making/
With the better ways we/
Were both headed wasted/
Let's instead replace this/
Course with something incredible baby/
Cause I know I'm a different person/
When I hit the bourbon/
Or get pissed and hurt when/
Were belittling, cursing/
Each other, I'm a riddle inserted/
Into the middle, bursting/
From a paradox/
Were scared, we fought/
And the terror we wrought/
Left us clippe…